I actually really wanted to become a philosopher as a kid. It seemed like the best way to live life.

You think for a living. You ponder the universe, life and humanity.

I know it’s not as simple as that and there are many schools of thought. Nowadays it’s such a dense subject. However, I still would like to study it.

I did history in school so I went more on that route but I would have loved to do both. I honestly wonder why I did anything else other than the humanities at university. Sure, you can’t get a job with them other than being a teacher but hey I didn’t get a job with the actual degree I did (journalism) so I may as well have done something I enjoyed.

I love history, philosophy, anthropology and sociology.

I wonder if this just means that I am noisy.

Even this section of my blog. It’s called musings and really I just sit here and type my random thoughts. I have so many thoughts and sometimes it feels like they’re too deep. If I keep on pondering I’ll down a dark well and have no interest in coming out.

I don’t mean in a depression way but more so I’ll just keep digging until I am satisfied that I have found the answer to my thoughts. Sometimes, I find my answer real quick. But other times it takes me ages to get my answer. I have to force myself to leave it be.

Of course my brain doesn’t listen and carries on working on it in the background and then one day I’m like aha!

Sometimes, a lot of the time, I wish I had someone to bounce my thoughts off of. Not someone to just listen to me talk but someone to discus things with.

However, that comes with risks. Sometimes, intellectual people look down on others if they don’t get what they’re saying.

I have one friend who is great for this, for discussing I mean. I can sit with him and talk about something for the sake of talking about it and even if he knows more about a topic than I do he doesn’t make me feel dumb about it. In fact, he’s the type to get excited because he gets to tell me a new thing. He has the energy of, “Ooh you’re going to love this!”

I want more friends like that. It’s so fun.

Also, it’s fun to come up with theories and then to see if they come into fruition or not.

I would have loved to be from the ancient times. I feel like I would have thrived there.

However, I was born in this century.

I really should have gone into humanities.