With white the year started
Careful were my steps
Steady was my resolve
Far I travelled to learn and grow
I learned of times past
I delved into a new world of art
My mind was expanded and delighted
A new passion permanently added to my life
In the midst of learned chaos relationship woes
Having a companion and yet feeling so alone
Missing freedom and peace of mind
Thinking it’s better to be alone,
A true sign of the end
Finally finished controlled learning
Free, like Dobby I am free
Never to be ensnared again
Like the sun coming out after the storm
The clouds in my mind cleared
Music, dance and art
Rediscovering the passions of my life
Twisting words into verse
Becoming myself again unapologetically
My walk with the One above
The paths set out before me riddled with sharp stones
Anger, disappointment and sadness I did not expect but I feel it
A relationship I am willing to fix,
To try to connect to God again
Like a roller coaster my journey has had spectacular highs and intense lows
My stomach has flown out of me as I’ve dropped
I’ve felt free as I’ve sailed through the sky
Not willing to land
Now as the journey of 18 is at its end
I realise it is just a year
Time is a construct
Each year has its charms and curses
I look forward to the charms of 19
I dread the curses