Looking at life and the world today I feel like we’re all trying to find something to fill the holes in our hearts.
We try to fill it with different kinds of things.
For me I tried to fill it with affirmation from others. I tried to fill it with books and music. I looked up to people I didn’t need to look up to. I’m not saying they were bad but they were human. As humans we all make mistakes.
It’s dangerous looking up to others because when that person lets you down or when you realise they’re not as strong as you thought they were… it can knock you a little bit. And that is what happened to me. I didn’t realise that the person I looked up to had weaknesses too. I thought they could do anything but when I realised they couldn’t and that they weren’t safe from this world’s darts either well… I became very jaded very fast. It coloured the world differently for me.
So then I was like then who am I going to look up to? What exactly am I looking for?
I guess I was looking for something to call my own. Something that I had to find within myself instead of in others.
I eventually realised that my best friend was God. My favourite verse in the bible is:
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Psalm 23: 4
I’ve loved this verse since childhood but it took me a while to understand why I loved it. It reminds me that no matter what I am going through God is always there. In the good and dark times He is there supporting me, looking after me.
From there I realised that He is the bestest friend you can have (yes I said bestest let’s move on). People will let you down. I will let you down but God never will. When I realised that I realised He’s the only Being who can fill that gaping hole in our hearts.
Nothing fills it better than He. He fills you and completes you. He helps you in your hour of need. When you’re hurting He heals you. When you’re happy He’s happy with you. When you doubt yourself He builds you up. When you’re getting big headed He humbles you.
He helps you at every stage of your life… if you let Him.
Looking back at my life I realise He has helped me a lot. When I prayed He answered.
Talking to my friends and family or just watching crime dramas I realised that I’m not the only who has that hole in my heart. I’m not the only one looking for God and not knowing it.
He’s right there all you have to do is let Him in.
Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.
Revelation 3: 20
Ps: I say ‘realise’ a lot in this post. I realise that.